Thursday, March 12

Random Thoughts....

This is probably the most random post I have done in a while but as of late I have been struggling some with "things" I put it in "" because honestly that is what they are things. A good friend reminded me yesturday that we cannot take them with us so why worry about them. Thank goodness that prayers are answered through others. I am not sure if it due to my DNA, the weather, stress or all of the above but I have been in a serious slump. It has been affecting everything I do, what time I wake up, how I treat others, and most important is how it is affecting my testimony. Now I am in no way questioning my faith but I do believe that if you are not constantly working at it that our testimony does not grow and therefore spiritually we are at a standstill. After two long conversations, one with a good friend and the other with my sister, very similar conversations (wierd how that works), doing my visiting teaching, prayer and reading this months articles in the Ensign, I am reminded and renewed of who I am, why I am here and where I am going. Needless to say thanks to support, service, love of my family (a great husband who knows who I am) little children that remind me that "I am lazy" (London told me so) I am finding joy in today and have a new outlook. I am greatful for a gospel that allows me to communicate with my Father and Heaven and recieve answers to my prayers. Honestly right now they are not the answers that I want but I know that if I will just listen to that still small voice that is telling me "just wait a little bit longer" that I will be blessed. This is definately a trial for me, which is why we are here right? To be tried and tested and to prove our faith and edure to the end. I know as members of the church we hear that all the time but after the conversations yesturday I truly know what it means to endure to the end. I know I have a Father in Heaven who wants to see me happy and have joy. I know I have a Savior laid out his life in a perfect manner to set the example for me. I know that he suffered and died for me that I might use his atonement in my life and that through repentance I can draw closer to him. I am grateful for the scriptures that I have to read and find the answers that I am looking for. I am grateful for the restored gospel on the earth that we can recieve revelationa and have priesthood blessings. I am greatful for the temples and the ordinances taken place inside that will forever bless my family here on earth and in the eternities. I am greatful for those who surround me that give me inspiration and strength everyday. I know that I am a daughter of God who has been intrusted to take care of some of his sweet spirits while I am here on the earth. Today I feel a since of gratitude for all the knowledge that I have and for the blessings he has given me. Thanks for reading and allowing me to share.

6 comments:

scrumches bunches said...

Janelle you are in no way Lazy, I too sat and read Ensign articles yesterday afternoon, however I am a month behind I was in Feb. but still it gave me a sense of renewal so ditto to your post we have alot to be thankful for we tend to fret over to many things we need to just keep things in perspective we know who we are and why we are here, and we are very fortunate to have that knowledge.

Scott said...

oh sis I wished we talked more to help each other through times like this. Kids say the darndest things. Keep up the good work. Love ya and take care.

Knight knughts said...

Sorry Scott was logged in again. Love ya

Emily said...

I think those times come and go...and when they come THEY DOWN POUR. If you ever want to chat...I am here. I think we have been through and are going through some similar situations.
Thanks for the reminder of your testimony and hope!

jblack said...

so I prepared my lesson this week for young womens and it was on how we can support our family members and I used our relationship as an example and how that even though we are grown and have our own families we stil need support and a constant someone to help motivate us. Thanks for the talks this week and sharing your testimony it is good to know that I am not the only one feeling low.

Abby said...

I really enjoyed your testimony and it is true, we are here to be tested and it is how we react that defines who we are. Good for you for rising above it.