Friday, August 17
Gratitude & Compassion
Alright it is count down time, and trust me the time is going slow, especially due to the fact that I am a miserable mess. Luckily for me I have lots of friends and family willing to help. I have about three weeks left now and progressing slowly. My mother was gracious enough to take my two little ones to Gradmy's house for a couple of days so I could get some rest and relaxation. As I have been in so much uncomfortalness I have been pondering the thought of why we do this? I had a complete melt down a few days ago partly becuase I was exhuasted and partly from pain I have been encuring and realized I have absolutely no control over my body right now. If it is not the child on that I am carrying taking hold of me it is my other two pulling me in every which way. So I have been thinking a lot on motherhood (also thanks to Young Women's Personal Progress goals, lds.org) and compassion. I have been trying to have an attitude of compassion towards my little ones becuase in all reality being a mother is an everyday miracle. If you take the time to sit back and see the millions of small miracles that happen in our homes everyday. From the sweet hugs and kisses in the morning, to a look of accomplishment when your two year old flushes the toilet or your four year old drew a self portrait. I have tried to have an attitude of compassion towards my girls in hopes to see more of the little miracles that focus on my miserey.